I just want to nap.
I've expressed, a few different times, my feelings of inadaquacy when it comes to being a wife and mother. I sit here, on this dreary Monday, feeling just that.
I have piles of things to do and NO motivation to do any of it. I told Jim, last night, that I figured I would feel that way today, after the busy weekend, and I was right. On the good side, I am doing laundry (the last of 4 loads is in the washer right now) and I did clean off some toys that I purchased at garage sales (some of which have been waiting to be cleaned off for a couple weeks now). However, my car is still full of the boxes of garage sale items that I didn't sell over the weekend and I just do NOT have the omph to unload right now. My Avon stuff needs to be organized, as well as the rest of my desk and my kitchen cupboards are starting to explode.
I know I have high standards for myself, my family and my house, so what is messy to me may look just fine to someone else. But there is no denying that there are some really messy spots in this house right now.
I highly admire people who juggle 20 things at once and do them well. Those people that have to be busy all the time and are good at it! I wish I were one of those people. Are those people on some sort of medication? Are they high on coffee and other forms of caffine? I need their secret!! Are you one of those people? Can you please share your motivation? Even if I feel the motivation stirring inside of me, my body is fighting back and winning over my mind. Ugh, I'm tired of being lazy.
I feel like juggler that has 10 plates in the air. If I stop paying attention for one second, they all might come crashing down. It's exhausting. I desperately desire a break. I pray that I can quit my job. I know it's not possible but it dominates my thoughts a lot. I hold onto my hour or two at night like it's gold. It's all I have. Back to work. =)
ReplyDeleteI forgot to add that I think you do an amazing job. Your house looks fantastic and your kids are wonderful. Don't put too much stress on yourself. How your house looks won't be something you think about 20 years from now. It will be the memories of the time you had with your family and friends.
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